My biggest competition

😇 I’m blessed to have so many guardian angels watching over me 😇.

As an only child- it’s not always easy not having my parents by my side anymore. But I feel truly blessed to be able to continue applying all that they taught me- as I continue to push myself to be a better person every day

My only competitor is the bad ass chick in the mirror- and as long as today I’m better than she was yesterday- I’m doing what I need to!

In high school I remember this lesson from my pops. I would get so upset that my friends were rewarded with money 💴 when they got good grades. In my case- a B meant grounding- even if everything else was As. My dad’s reasoning? I could do better. When I would argue my friends made money 💰 for the same grades- he’d gently remind me I wasn’t them- and that I had to do my best- not theirs 😎

Life according to dad- hard lessons at the time- great life lessons that continue to push me every day 🙏💕

Hi! My name is Tina…

Hello!  My name is Tina and I am addicted to food.

There. I said it.

As a certified health coach and personal trainer it’s difficult to openly admit I’m not perfect. I’m not doing it for high fives – or “you go girl”s. I’ve decided to come clean and open up about my eating disorder for 2 main reasons:

1- I need some accountability in my life. My entire life I have struggled with my weight. Since I was 18 the lowest number I’ve seen on the scale is 180- the highest 395. Today I’m sitting at a fluffy 265. I work out every day and eat MOSTLY healthy food. It’s the stuff I don’t share that is my problem. So- starting today- if it goes in my mouth- I’m probably going to be sharing it. The good the bad and the really bad. Why?

This brings me to my second reason for opening up …

2- I hope that by sharing my current struggle and journey I can help someone else who is secretly battling with an eating disorder that isn’t often spoken about.  We hear about the eating disorders when people don’t eat, but for those of us that binge eat, or eat mindlessly… we can often feel alone.  We are NOT!  YOU are not alone!

Today, October 15, 2018 I chose to begin a cleanse.  I am not committing to a certain number of days, as for me I have to take it one day at a time, listen to my body and take it from there.  So far, I feel great.  I’m sticking to my super food shake that give me my daily super powers, and water.   My biggest addiction that is causing me harm is my addiction to chocolate and sugar.  I need to cleanse myself before diving into yummy greens and fruits because I’ve been eating non stop chocolate and sugar for several months now.

Is a cleanse for everyone?  Nope.  You’ve got to learn to listen to your own machine.  I know from experience that for me, this is the jump start I need to get myself back on track, and hopefully more permanently this time.

So- here I am- back to my blog and this time all the filters are off. There will be full – unfiltered – body shots. There will be good days and bad. There will be freaking amazing food- and probably some really shitty food. It’s all part of my reality.

I’m ready to make a permanent change. This battle has lasted long enough. So- sit back- grab some air popped popcorn or carrot chips- and enjoy the ride with me

Here’s to healthy living

😎